...and they keep following my private thoughts and thinking, "See?" like they have control over me if I am indeed nice, like I never was and just gave in!
I don't ever thing violent thoughts nor words until Ellen DeGeneres said not to when she thought she had to be mean to me and she gave me a tough time I felt.
I can feel as tho someone I look up to is feeling excited, looking at me serious like I'm in trouble otherwise, waiting for their inappropriate stimulations.
It looks like I've been put with the trash socially. I'm with those people who are too too cute and don't have anything that interests them anymore. They are too racially secure.